I never felt this complete ever before yet sometimes I experience certain void within me.
Sometimes, it feels like there should be a partner always by your side. May be right.
But then every cell of my body scream that a girl is not a commodity. She is a human being and has her own interests.
In fact everyone comes to the relationship for getting their own stuff. Rarely anyone comes in a relationship just to give without getting anything.
I don’t think anyone can do that without feeling complete within himself or herself. This kind of man or a woman ideally won’t come in a relationship as he or she doesn’t have any interest to fulfill from the partner.
But these are the ideal people.
Unless the person feels complete by herself she will demand in many different ways and I feel almost complete so I will end up sacrificing and giving up every thing for her. But I am not complete on real. Someday that part will come out and frustrate the hell out of me and I would feel the shackle.
Recently, I was talking to one of my friends, she got married and was happy when she did it. Now recently she had to meed her ex and now she is miserable as he has a girlfriend.
The relationship should have a deep commitment. It should always be for the other person, if that is not happening then it is bullshit. This commitment and surrender makes the relationship beautiful.
Most people slip into love triangle or multiple relationship once the find someone more funny, creative, handsome or beautiful. These people are missing the dissolution that a single pointed love is capable of.
This could become the most beautiful thing that happens to a human being.
What disappoint me is that many people are looking for the best one. The ideal one. Whomsoever you may find there will be one person better, there is no end to this struggle and eventually you will get entangled as the best person wouldn’t have things that the worst in your list had.
Whomsoever you get in your life can you give it all. Not even 99.99%. it has to 100% always.
For me, I won’t find if I look for her. Only if she finds me then only I could find someone like that. And she must be doing it to escape something else. If she doesn’t need a relationship then I have a lot to give her.
I wish someone of that sort will come by otherwise I would love to remain alone rather than sorting out the stupid frictions of everyday.