I am

Swapneswar Barik.

An Explorer of Life. I loved reading, writing, playing, singing and dancing. I was the lead choreographer of our college Dance Club. It gave me recognition and a lot of love from people.

When it came down to a career, I aimed to build my own business instead of working for someone, and I learned everything about digital marketing. Whatever I did, I was great at it. And I had figured out everything that I need earn money and live a luxurious life. But…

Then Sadhguru happened to me and shook the foundation of my perception of a good life. Now, I am out on a voyage again to know the deeper and true dimension of life, so far I have understood that there is something existential yet behind the curtain.

Whether I will uncover it or not, only time can tell but this is my journey…

  • Why I Left Isha Ashram: A Married Monk’s Honest Journey Between Sadhana, Family, and Freedom

    From Monk to Maybe Married When I first thought of the name Married Monk, I laughed. I never imagined myself getting married. And well—I’m still not. But lately, it feels like the universe is nudging me toward something unexpected. This blog began as a personal brand to share my knowledge and monetise it. But now,…

  • the best thing to do in the world: Sitting still

    i dont remember after how many weeks i visited Dhyanlinga yesterday and realised what the hell was i doing. I was practising flute at the night at nalanda ground after dinner and kept practising late. Usually i was supposed to come back and teach shriparna guitar but i kept playing ignoring that i have to…

  • The beauty of Uncertainty

    I was in the office helping my coordinator to get one ppt done. a few more members were there doing their own stuff and suddenly a talk of going to a nearby stream came up. They asked me if i am interested. I may say no to food or party, but i never say no…

  • Tears of love, loosing myself for them.

    I was thinking about what should i send along with the stuffs that Himangi left behind before leaving home. I did give it a thought, i could send chocolate, biscuit, maybe bhujia with biscuit, which would be funny though. No, something more valuable, what can be more valuable than food. I did not find anything…

  • Best Sadhguru Darshan of me So far.

    Today was the last day of Samyama. So, i went in the culmination satsang. I have almost missed it and after witnessing what has happened inside of it, if i had missed i would have regretted it. Starting from the start… It was not a good start. As the day went ahead. I did my…

  • Lack of commitment will keep you in the loop

    One thing that i have suffered so far in like is not being able to remain committed to one thing. I know how beautiful it looks when you sincerely fall in love with one thing and do that for the rest of the life. i always confused that with freedom. I felt i would miss…